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Thoughts on communication...

April 13th, 2012 (02:11 pm)

current mood: thoughtful

Okay... I'm having a fragmented set of thoughts today about the way we communicate online.

This is partly coming from the fact that I am waiting - just waiting - for someone to come along and comment on one of Jay's press pieces and try to create some kind of argument. Heaven forbid it involves them trying to defend Mark or trying to make it into a race/gender issue, i.e. she was a little white girl/Mark is a POC/wouldn't it be different if specified genders/colors were different in this situation/etc.

I guess my anticipation of this issue shows a lack of trust in humanity on my part, but it lost my trust a long time ago and now I'm just trying to figure out the best way to function...

It seems a lot of people like to go from article to article, post to post, commenting and trying to see to what extent they can cause a fight and to what extent they can piss people off. I know some of these are probably trolls, but I honestly think that some are just normal article-readers who genuinely feel not only protected, but completely justified being assholes on the internet (anonymous as it is or can be).

It's fine if folks disagree - but from HuffPost to Inside Higher Ed to the stupid celebrity columns I come across, it just seems that people are SO READY to thrown down the gauntlet over whatever it is that's been printed. I just don't understand why. In particular, I don't understand the need to belittle and insult the original poster.

Don't agree with a blogger's opinions? Great. Disagree. Have an intellectual discourse, even! I'll just never understand why people feel the need to immediately defend the alternate point of view in a rude, disrespectful, insulting manner. I'll never understand the impulse to be mean to complete strangers for no legitimate reason.

I.E. I don't agree with you so therefore you are automatically a fuckhead and should be greeted with ridicule.

I just... don't know?

NOW THIS IS NOT TO SAY, of course, that if someone writes something deliberately belligerent and hateful, something that OUTRIGHT attacks you or your identity on a personal level, that you shouldn't respond in kind. It's probably appropriate to respond that way.

But for example, why are there so many hateful comments on Ashley Judd's rebuttal to the media's stupid obsession with her "puffy face"? The commenters on her response are proving exactly what she's brought up - that much of media coverage on women is misogynistic discourse. Moreover, it seems like in this and in other articles of a similar nature, there are many who feel the need to step up and say, "Oh yeah you think women have it hard well men have it HARDER." In many of these articles, nobody says ANYTHING about men having it easy or even that all men or all women are guilty of the types of abuses mentioned. However, that's always that one who feels the need to negate whatever struggle is highlighted by claiming that there is another, greater struggle somewhere else.

Yeah. Life is full of struggle. But why does that mean that a random flippant commenter’s struggle is more valid than the one Judd has written about? Nobody claimed the reverse to be true. It's almost an entirely other discussion but I read SO MANY feminist articles that are torn down in the comment section by people doing the "Oh yeah you think you have it so hard WELL LOOK AT THIS" dance.

I just don't even... for the love of just treat people with compassion there would be so many fewer problems in the world if people did the end.


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Much-awaited press on our baby

April 9th, 2012 (09:13 pm)

Thank you, Whittier Daily News (and also luhnquil</lj>lqc).


Now I can actually talk about what happened...

EDIT April 11: The world we live in is a sick place... I know they've been trying to keep a lot of this information under wraps - hence why I couldn't talk about it - because the trial hasn't even started yet. But now that things are public knowledge... I don't know.

I wondered, for the first month or so, do so many terrible things really happen, that something like this doesn't go directly to the news? Apparently so. Just look at lists like this:


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Hunger Games Music Meme

March 13th, 2012 (01:56 pm)

current mood: literary

I have created a meme. A Hunger Games meme…

Well admittedly someone did this on Tumblr (on the Hunger Games tag) for animated gifs, but I made it for music!

“Set your preferred music player to random and write down the titles of the tracks in the order in which they play. (No cheating! Unless, you know, it’s to make it more entertaining to skip tracks labeled “Track 09” or some nonsense.)

This is how your Hunger Games play out. May the odds be ever in your favor!”

Your reaction when your name is called: Do What You Have To DoCollapse )

To be x-posted to FB I believe... For funsies.

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(no subject)

January 31st, 2012 (10:05 am)

I'm running a test to see who's reading my posts. So, if you read this, leave me a one-word comment about your day that starts with the third letter of your LJ USERNAME. Only one word please. Then repost so I can leave a word for you. Don't just post a word and not copy - that's not as much fun!

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(no subject)

January 22nd, 2012 (02:26 am)

For Jayden:

Please be warned, this is not a happy post, but it explains my Facebook statuses the last few days.Collapse )

I will, however, be posting soon about my new apartment, so... That's something. :)

Andi [userpic]

NaNo 2011

November 29th, 2011 (12:52 am)

current mood: ecstatic

Quoth the NaNoWriMo Song:

"It's a mixture of relief, perseverance and caffeine... And just a little touch of going mad."

Please to be viewing here if you are curious as to the nature of this song I keep quoting...Collapse )

I suppose leaving a crowded Starbucks at 10:30pm just to go write by yourself, in the dark, on a cold park bench, by a duck pond, could be considered a little, well, mad. :D


I win NaNoWriMo 2011. I wrote a FREAKING BOOK. Now, I'm going to take the last two days to flesh out the last few chapters, which right now are very, very sketchy. I'm thinking my final word count will be around 55,000. This will then be my largest NaNo word count to date, and most likely the most finished draft, too. :) Somebody may actually get to read it some day wait what that's madness


<3 everyone! You all have been super-supportive and helpful, seriously.

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November 22nd, 2011 (11:49 am)

There may be spoilers for the first two hours or so of the game but mostly this is me gesticulating in glee.Collapse )

[x-posted to zelda_lovers]


Also, I am at the 70% mark for NaNoWriMo.

This weekend, I had the pleasure of attending the Night of Writing Dangerously, put on by the Office of Letters and Light... If I can sneak away some more time today, I'll write up a blog on it...

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Writer's Block: LJ Pumpkin Carvageddon contest!

October 31st, 2011 (05:23 pm)

This is the pumpkin I carved at the Lewis clan's abode on Sunday night. (Crappy camera phone photo aside...) They always do a totally fun pumpkin carving session, complete with patterns and pizza and really loud Halloween music! :D

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December 31st, 2009 (07:12 pm)

End Of Year Survey stolen from my lovely cousinCollapse )

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Sick of feeling powerless

December 18th, 2009 (02:04 am)

current mood: enraged

**NOTE TO SELF: I need a "badass" icon because I just realized I don't have one, and something like that would help me express things...


So you know how sometimes my dad is a dick-ass jerk? Well, apparently Eric, my younger brother, is also a dick-ass-know-it-all-misogynist fucking jerk.

I'm working on that last essay for my online class (which, by the way, I have REALLY not wanted to do, because it is annoying and I hate this class), and I needed to finish it tonight. Eric is sleeping on the couch because for whatever reason he won't sleep in the room he and Steven are supposed to share. So when I'm working on it, he keeps asking if I can work on my computer--which I CAN'T because I need the online course website and that fucking thing crashes my computer every time. So I tell him that he wakes me up every morning playing his french horn, so he can wait half a fucking hour while I finish this goddamn paper. (I said it nicely.)

At this point he starts flinging insults (among them "bitch," which I hate more than almost any word and consider it the worst insult, not to mention fucking misogynist because there isn't a corresponding word for guys) and telling me what that's different. Everything is "different" when it comes to his goddamn French horn. We all have to make allowances for him--and yet he makes allowances for nobody, even on one night out of this entire month I'm here. And yet HE calls ME selfish.

And then when he bugs me and insults me and swears at me until I just push him to get him to SHUT UP, he violently--AND I MEAN VIOLENTLY--grabs onto me and shoves me down, twice, and gets all up in my face about weak women, etc. I think I have bruises.

All I'm going to say is that I'm glad he and his long-time girlfriend broke up, because this fucking prick does NOT deserve to be with a nice girl like her.

Oh, I forgot about the "powerless" thing...

I'm tired of being made to feel powerless, by certain idiots, my students, and now my own family of all people. FUCK them all I guess.


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December 4th, 2009 (12:23 am)
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current mood: thankful / still sad

Okay, so to make a long story short, I'm coming home. Had a little bit of a nervous breakdown that wasn't helped at all by finding out that one of my very good teacher friend's 10-year-old kids committed suicide last week... nor was it helped by a 9-year-old kid saying, "Make me, bitch," when I tried to have work-time. I'll be home on Sunday, morning or the afternoon depending on when I head out of here.

My intention is to go back in January, but my principal was quite reassuring that if I didn't want to come back, she wouldn't hold it against me at all. This was a collective decision by me and a council at school. I wasn't even the one who said I wanted to go home; but it was decided that that was the best decision. I actually received a lot of support from the staff at school regarding this, which was a pleasant surprise. After TFA I was basically expecting to be told to suck it up. But this was a group of adults with more than 100 years of experience between them and all of them told me that they wouldn't have been able to handle this place at 22.

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NaNoWriMo 2009

December 1st, 2009 (12:18 am)

current mood: ecstatic
current music: Defying Gravity


I'm actually really excited about this novel. I even like a lot of the parts I already wrote; and even though it's incredibly raw, still, and the end needs to be gone over with a mallet or something... Basically, this makes up for the crappiness that has been this fall. I added to it with a crazy deadline, but ah well!

Also hoping to write up what the Night of Writing Dangerously was like, because it was RIDICULOUSLY AMAZING.

Um... other news... basically I can't wait to come back home in three weeks, and today I was literally told by my principal that I need to take care of myself first and that she won't hold it against me at all if I leave. o.O So yeah... she was really the only one I was worried about disappointing.

To TFA, most of time, I just feel like saying "suck it" and forgetting about even trying to come back next year.

I don't think I'll really know 'til May.

*goes back to the NaNo Happy Dance*

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Growing up

November 21st, 2009 (08:33 pm)

current mood: relieved

A few nights ago, I was almost asleep... when I began laughing uproariously.

Cut for personal reflection.Collapse )

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On a completely different note...

October 2nd, 2009 (07:44 pm)

current mood: cheerful

For those who are costume-ly inclined:

I made a bustle skirt a while ago... but I want to shape the wire to make it less... uh, flat, across the back. How do you shape hoop wire? I've tried looking on the internet and it isn't very helpful...

Also, I'm starting to make my basque vest, in my very lovely olive-y green velvet, so I'm excited about that.

I do so love to costume...

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To those of the Mac persuasion...

September 28th, 2009 (08:25 pm)

...um, my MacBook is starting to run REALLY slow. It's kinda stupid. Especially in that I can't switch between screens (you know, like when you can press "command-arrow" to make it go to a different one?) and the program in the new screen is all screwed up or seems to be missing pieces. Does anyone have any suggestions?

In other news:

Finding a dentist is IMPOSSIBLE.

That is all.

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(no subject)

August 31st, 2009 (08:01 pm)

current mood: determined

NOTICE: I shall be in CA from Friday night, September 4th, 'til Monday morning, September 7th.

Any who wish to be involved in said visit should let me know, 'cause unless I make some kind of plan, there's no way I'm gonna get to see all the people I wanna see. :D I want to see everyone!! I miss my friends!

Speaking of which... *points to icon* IT OWNS ME AND I CAN'T STOP IT. Ah fandom...


So, living on the Zuni Reservation, in New Mexico. Fourth week of school. Am the Reading teacher for 3rd grade. (This means the little one's literary development is in the hands of the English major, mwahahahaaa....) In many ways this is great because planning is limited to what to do for Langauage Arts, rather than what to do with a room full of nine-year-olds who need to know ALL the subjects... In many ways this is frustrating because while my lesson by the 3rd time through goes smoothly, I realize that the beginning of the day could have gone SO much better. I suppose this is the curse of being a first-year teacher.

My colleagues... (psssh, colleagues... it's so freaking WEIRD to be an actual grown-up with a job and colleagues and professional development and rent and cooking....) Anyway, they pretty much rock. They have offered all the help I could want and then some.

My kids... Um, well they're getting there. XD Really, they are smart, and it's clear that they are going to learn a lot, and that I'm going to get quite attached... but they are so friggin' HYPER. I can't get them to stop with the rolling around of large erasers that make way too much noise, with the fiddling around with NOTHING in the desks, with the humming for NO REASON. OH MY GOD. I know that it's still the beginning of the year, and that they're testing me (because even the kindergartners on the other side of the school seem to know that I'm "the new teacher"...), and that they're 9 for crying out loud... but still.

Quote of the Week from last week (in which there was an incident with someone doing an obscene hand gesture--not the finger--and calling someone else "pussy"): "If this doesn't get better soon I think we're going to have a collective aneurysm."

Yeah... I'm trying to think of any other updates I can offer, but really, my life has been nothing but work for the past two and a half months. XD Not complaining, mind, because I really am learning a lot--plus I get to be helping the children. Even if I feel like strangling them half the time.

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(no subject)

August 1st, 2009 (09:03 pm)

current mood: alive

Please to be visiting HERE

...in order to see epic pictures of ComicCon.


And in other (less fandom-ly) spheres, I am almost ready to start in my classroom! We had some introduction to the district on Friday, in which I got my district badge. I will be setting up my classroom next week!

Also, I got switched from 4th grade to 3rd grade. So, slightly younger, slightly more what I got used to teaching my crazy 1st graders during Institute this summer. XD

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July 18th, 2009 (10:38 pm)

current mood: glad

This is my baby brother. He is a psychopath.

And when I get home next week I'm probably going to go join him in doing this same thing..... XD


Anyway, Institute is done!! Yahoo!!! :D (Who says cheesy things like that unless they're actually really happy....?) Unlike what some people have been saying, it was (surprisingly) NOT the worst 5 weeks of my life. Yeah, the constant brainwashing suggestions of TFA were a little difficult to manage, and the schedule was obnoxious and left VERY little room for flexibility or, you know, stopping and smelling the roses, but I feel like I have learned SO much these past few weeks, it was all worth it.

And I'm actually going to miss my CMA, Kate, and my Co-Lab. They were AMAZING to work with and even though none of them were New Mexicorps and I'm gonna miss them like crazy, I know they're gonna do great things with their kids in New Orleans and southern Louisiana.

View some pictures of our last day here:

Featuring my 'teacher friends' and the kidlets of my first class.

Now I'm back in lovely Gallup! Resting tonight, then seeing HP tomorrow, 'cause I don't have to actually be at TFA stuff until Monday morning. Then I get to look at teacherages!!!

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This.. is creepily accurate...

July 13th, 2009 (06:52 pm)

The second lunar eclipse of 2009 takes place on July 7, signaling the beginning of a dramatic eclipse period. A solar eclipse occurs on July 21 and then another lunar eclipse happens on August 5. A lunar eclipse always occurs during a full Moon, when the Earth comes between the Sun and the Moon, casting its shadow on the Moon. Eclipses also come in pairs.

We tend to be more emotionally expressive during a full Moon, and this time around, that bright orb in the night sky is no exception! This won’t be a boring month and you'll want to keep your eyes and ears open so that you can take full advantage of the opportunities and avoid the pitfalls. This is a time to stand back and assess your goals. Your career/work life gets a lot of attention now, and with Saturn making a helpful aspect, you just may get the support you've been hoping for! The Jupiter/Neptune conjunction in Aquarius, which will be exact on July 10, boosts your optimism. While the eclipse in practical Capricorn keeps your feet on the ground, this idealistic duo reminds you to dream big!

Yeah... even the thing about the optimism. Two weeks ago was definitely the low point for me, but last week, even though the sleep deprivation had definitely started to hit, I was feeling more positive in general. Veeeery interesting, stars... *wonders about all the eclipses*



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(no subject)

July 11th, 2009 (08:17 pm)
current mood: alive


Behold the Grand Canyon! :D


In other news, yesterday when we got home from school, it was about 2pm. I did some things and ended up laying down on my bed--which according to all the TFA vets is a Bad Idea; "When you get home... whatever you do, DON'T sit on your bed! You'll end up sleeping until the morrow!" Well, I took a nap from about 5 'til 8 or so--at which point my roommate walked in the room and after exclaiming that I was indeed awake, asked if I wanted to go to the movies.

Well, we ended not eating dinner and just going to see Bruno--FUNNY as hell and yet almost as equally disconcerting.

Today, I laid in bed and watched anime. It was fabulous. It didn't require movement or thought!!!! :D

And now, ice cream.

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